Well, I thought I would drop in to give a brief explanation as to why I haven't been blogging as normal. I'm actually at a crossroads in my life. It's one of those situations where God/The Universe, is insisting that you are going to make some life changes.
So to give you a brief update, my readers should know that my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. She had one breast removed and underwent chemo and radiation. They found that the cancer had spread to her lymph nodes so they removed them. When everything was said and done they discovered another lump in her second breast. That kind of infuriates me because I had already told my mother that if she is getting one removed she might inquire about getting the other one removed as well as a form of insurance against any further breast cancer. She said that it violated the doctors protocols to do such. Well, sure enough they discovered another lump in her other breast. I'm not sure what is going to happen with regard to that.
If the cancer wasn't bad enough, my mother left and moved way up north out of state. I have only texted her once since she left. I love my mother but she feels like a stranger to me and I know that I am not the only family member who feels like this. I keep telling myself that perhaps her drastic change in behavior is due to her chemo treatment, as it can effect the brain but am just not sure.
Additionally, I lost my day job over some bull shit excuse. I didn't do anything wrong and there is more to the story but it's a can of worms and it's better if I just leave it be. Two days after getting let go I got pulled over and got 2 tickets. If that wasn't bad, I came home to find one of my dogs dead, so I had deal with that. She had been sick and suffered from breathing problems and allergies all of her life so it was understandable.
My dad moved out the house and into my brother's home. Me, my sister and her fiance live here now. I will be staying here until I find another day job and a new home. My sister and her fiance will be marrying this month, so that's good news. I'm happy for them and wish them success and happiness.
Now for the clincher, I was suffering from severe teeth pain after having two bad teeth and being unable to afford going to a dentist as I didn't have insurance at the time. So I was saving money. It ultimately cost me nearly $5,000.00 to get them fixed but that's all said and done now. Anyway, at the time I was a wreck from all of the pain. I quickly exhausted what little amount of pain pills that I had on hand and of course Tylenol, Advil, and the like do absolutely nothing for teeth pain. Even Anbesol is useless for anything other than very mild teeth pain. I tried that stuff last time I had teeth pain and it only made the teeth pain worse. I've heard about clove oil and I know that it does numb the area but I felt it would be similar to Anbesol. So in order to try to have as normal as possible a life before I could get my teeth fixed I began to use a completely legal herb called Kratom. It's a plant that has opiod-like properties. Because I had to take it for an extended amount of time I developed an addiction to it. So I had to go through withdrawal (on my own) after deciding to quit it. The withdrawals were super bad. Horrible. This said, Kratom is a remarkable plant. Not a single twinge of tooth pain when I was on it.
As a result of all the problems I was hit with at once I did slip into a depression. I'm on my way out and am climbing my way back to normal but it will just take some time. So I will be taking a breather from blogging for a while just until I can get things back to normal. I know that some of you may think that this was the result of a curse or an enemy throwing at me but I can assure you that I know how to handle myself and that each time I checked the answer was always no, that these things weren't the result of any enemies but where just natural life problems that just happened to converge upon me. I have been keeping up with my cleansings, as usual.
So, thank you readers for being patient. I shall return to blogging as soon as possible.
Oh, and if possible, say a prayer for my niece. She was recently diagnosed with lupus and needs some healing energy.